Payback: Chapter 15
I woke alone. I had hoped that Sookie had read my note, forgiven me for my angry and awful comment and would be ready for the great makeup sex by now. I closed my eyes and felt that she was away, most likely in Bon Temps and assumed that she was at Tara’s again. I got dressed and had a True Blood and was getting ready to call her when I felt her panic and fear. I called her cell, but got her voice mail. I walked out the front door and took off flying. From the air, I called Compton. No answer. I called Bubba. Same thing. Shit. I was getting ready to call Clancy to see if he knew the whereabouts of Compton or Bubba when I felt her fear stop and my own did as well. She seemed fine.
I continued on my path as I wanted to see her anyway and find out what had frightened her. I couldn’t believe my eyes when I saw her in the cemetery with fucking Compton. That man needs to stay the fuck away from my wife. I landed and started beating the crap out of him, but then when I saw the look in Sookie’s eyes, I decided that he wasn’t worth it. My beating him would just make her want to defend him more. I couldn’t win. I told her to get in the car and she did. (I did have to get a little snake out of the way for her. At least I was good for something.) I was pissed. The ride home was mostly silent except for one exchange.
“Why were you afraid earlier?”
And that was it. No other conversation. Apparently, I was not forgiven.
She went to her room and closed the door. I spent most of the night down in the den watching T.V. but not paying much attention to the shows that were on. I finally couldn’t stand it any more so I went to her room and knocked on her door.
“Are you okay now?”
“I guess.” The tears started.
“Did you get my note?”
“I don’t know Eric. I need some time. You act like this is no big deal, but for me it’s a huge deal. I honestly don’t know if I can forgive you.”
I couldn’t believe my ears. I mean, I know it was an awful thing to say, but come on! “I am sorry Sookie. I was upset. It won’t happen again. Wait. I can’t promise that. I will certainly try to not let it happen again, but I know that sometimes I lose my temper. I promise that I will try to never let that happen again. And I am very sorry that it happened last night. Is that good enough?”
She just turned over and started wailing into her pillow. What the fuck?
Who is this man and what has he done with the man I married? That’s all I kept thinking. Suddenly, Eric’s indiscretion was no big deal, something I needed to forgive him for and move on? When he said he would try to not let it happen again, I almost died. He can’t promise that it won’t happen again? Oh my god. Has the world gone mad? I know I was there on that beach when we said our marriage vows. I heard him with my own ears. And that wasn’t all that long ago. How did we get to this place? What am I going to do? I just cried my heart out into my pillow. At some point, I heard him leave the room, but the tears didn’t stop.